one.

not be bitter over life's disappointment. learn to let go of the past. don't be afraid to stumble. because most of the time, the greatest rewards come from doing the things that scare you the most. who knows where the life will take you? the road is long and in the end, the journey is the destination.

homesick

You're in a better place, ive heard a thousand times. and at least at thousand times, i've rejoiced for you. but the reason why i'm broken, the reason why i cry is how long must i wait to be with you. i close my eyes and i see your face. if homes where my heart is then i'm out of place. Lord, won't You give me strength to make it through somehow. i'll never be more homesick than now.

Help me Lord, cos i dont understand Your ways. the reason why i wonder if i'll ever know. but even if You showed me, the hurt would be the same. cos i'm still here, so far away from home. i'll close my eyes and i see your face. if homes where my heart is, then i'm out of place. Lord, won't You give me strength to make it through somehow. i'll never be more homesick than now.

In Christ, there are no goodbyes. in Christ, there is no end. so i'll hold on to Jesus with all that i have, to see you again. to see you again. and i'll close my eyes and i'll see your face. if homes where my heart is then i'm out of place. Lord, wont You give me strength to make it through somehow. wont You give me strength to make it through somehow?
i'll never be more homesick than now.


i'll miss you, grandpa.

current song: homesick by mercy me

live for tomorrow

a better me for a better tomorrow.

for that reason, i want to apologize.
its not easy for me to say this, dont even know how to put this. i know i'll chicken out to say it face-to-face to the person. but i hope this makes me feel a bit better. maybe when the time comes, i will say it face-to-face.

CHAPTER 1 (family)
for the first person, my dad.
i apologize for what i've done. i've put you into too much problems. i was so mad at you when you blamed me for what has happened. i didnt get it. so i blamed you. im sorry for being so selfish and childish. but now i know. i should've left the past cos its the past. i want to give you the benefit of the doubt once again. its very hard, always hard. but i want you to know that its worth it. i know it is. i love you, dad. i forgive you.

*song: Emotionless by Good Charlotte

for my sister, the best ever.
im sorry for everything ive done. its great having you in my life. the way you live your life has changed me a lot. ive finally seen what is more to life than ive ever before. you are my inspiration. i thank God for everything that i am so grateful i have a sister in my life, the one and only true sister, the best. thanks for your prayers, your love, thanks for taking care of me all these times. thanks for everything.

*song: someone watching over me by hilary duff

for my mom, i miss you so much.
i miss you mom. every second of my life i'll be missing you. sorry for what ive done. i was a stubborn kid to you. im sorry, but the truth is, i dont regret it cos that is what makes me today. my selfishness and rebellion have put you into too much worry. i love you, mom. i love you too much.

*song: thank you, mom - Good Charlotte