live for tomorrow

a better me for a better tomorrow.

for that reason, i want to apologize.
its not easy for me to say this, dont even know how to put this. i know i'll chicken out to say it face-to-face to the person. but i hope this makes me feel a bit better. maybe when the time comes, i will say it face-to-face.

CHAPTER 1 (family)
for the first person, my dad.
i apologize for what i've done. i've put you into too much problems. i was so mad at you when you blamed me for what has happened. i didnt get it. so i blamed you. im sorry for being so selfish and childish. but now i know. i should've left the past cos its the past. i want to give you the benefit of the doubt once again. its very hard, always hard. but i want you to know that its worth it. i know it is. i love you, dad. i forgive you.

*song: Emotionless by Good Charlotte

for my sister, the best ever.
im sorry for everything ive done. its great having you in my life. the way you live your life has changed me a lot. ive finally seen what is more to life than ive ever before. you are my inspiration. i thank God for everything that i am so grateful i have a sister in my life, the one and only true sister, the best. thanks for your prayers, your love, thanks for taking care of me all these times. thanks for everything.

*song: someone watching over me by hilary duff

for my mom, i miss you so much.
i miss you mom. every second of my life i'll be missing you. sorry for what ive done. i was a stubborn kid to you. im sorry, but the truth is, i dont regret it cos that is what makes me today. my selfishness and rebellion have put you into too much worry. i love you, mom. i love you too much.

*song: thank you, mom - Good Charlotte