7 things

Im finally here again :)

Just a quick update.
1. Asia conference in Singapore was fantastic. It was so powerful and impactful and im truly truly blessed. and so are the rest of the 26,000 people, i suppose. God is so generous and so is City Harvest Singapore. Thank You :)

2. Birthday in Singapore was awesome. Apart from birthday celebration by some cell members, Ps. Phil Pringle and Dr. A.R. Bernard gave me the best birthday preaching ever. LOL. but yea, it was allllllllll good. God knows the right time :)
and Oh, Don Moen was awesomeeeeee :)

3. Birthday in Malaysia was awesome too. Thanks to Tim and friends for celebrating with me. Had great food, great bday cake and great fun laughing all night. I love it and i love it :) Thanksss :)

4. Arise and Build 2008
Here comes the life-changing opportunity to sow for God's house. Last year, i pledged 4-figures. I was blessed with great jobs and great experiences. I was well-taken care of and i still am. God is my provider. This time, faith needs to be stretched again. I pledge 5 times bigger than last year. I have no friggin idea how to fulfill it. But i serve a big God and i dont want to miss a chance to sow for God's house. He'll make a way, i know. And, another great testimony is on its way :) God is good.

5. Counselling
yea, i've been going for counseling this past month. Ask me why. LOL

6. Prom
Josh Tan wants me to sing with him and the band (Wen, Julian and some others) for Taman Sea prom on Dec 12. The plans are to sing 3 songs. 'In the Sun' by Joseph Arthur, 'Kiss Me' by SNTR and im not sure about the 3rd one. Hm, what a priviledge. After few years away from the stage and singing in a band, now i have the chance again. Not gonna blow it :)

7. U.S.
I'm going on March for Spring intake :)


blessed one,
amanda.natalia

listening to: After Glow by INXS

Psalm 48

Nothing's greater than knowing this.

You are the God of this city
You are the King of this people
You are the Lord of this nation, You are

You are the light in this darkness
You are the hope to the hopeless
You are the peace to the restless, You are

There is no one like our God
There is no one like our God

Greater things have yet to come
Greater things are still to be done in this city
Greater things have yet to come
And greater things are still to be done in this city 

Yeah. There is no one like my God.
Psalm 48:14 "For this is God, Our God forever and ever."

*Playing: God of This City by Chris Tomlin

deep inside of you

Here's a blast from the past.

When we met, light was shed
Thoughts free flow
You said you've got something
Deep inside of you

A wind chime voice sound
Sway of your hips round rings true
It goes deep inside of you

These secret garden beams
Changed my life, so it seems
A fall breeze blows outside
I don't break stride, my thoughts are warm
And they go deep inside of you
Oh yeah

And I never felt alone, alright
Oh oh, till I met you

Friends say I've changed
I don't listen cos I live to be
Deep inside of you

Slide of her dress
Shouts in darkness, I'm so alive
I'm deep inside of you

You said, "boy make girl feel good"
But still, deep inside
Still

I've never felt alone
Till I met you
I'm alright on my own
And then I met you
And I'd know what to do
If I just knew what's coming

I would change myself if I could
I'd walk with my people if I could find them
And I'd say that I'm sorry to you
I'm sorry to you

And I don't want to call you
But then I want to call you
Cos I don't want to crush you
But I feel like crushing you, and it's true
I took for granted you were with me
I breathe by your looks and you look right through me

But we were broke and didn't know
We were broke and didn't know
We were broke and didn't know
We were broke and didn't know

Something's gone, you withdraw
And I'm not strong like before
I was deep inside of you

I can go nowhere
I burn candles and stare
At a ghost deep inside of you

And some great need in me
Starts to bleed
I've lost myself, there's nothing left
It's all gone
Deep inside of you
Deep inside of you
Deep inside of you

Deep Inside of You by Third Eye Blind

flashbacks

Ps. Mike Connell, a pastor from a church in New Zealand came to my church last month. He shared about 'passing through a valley of sorrow'. What i can still strongly remember is when he shared about his past relationship. His wife broke up with him in a restaurant when they were dating. When he was in the same restaurant years later, he suddenly felt uncomfortable with the athmosphere. Soon enough he realized that it was the violin player playing this paricular melody that brought him to the feeling back then when his wife broke up with him.

Same thing is happenning to me. I went to my CD rack this afternoon, was looking for some old mixed CDs from some friends and loved ones. LOL. I played the one i got from a special someone in the past. Gosh. Suddenly my heart was pounding. I felt 'that' again.

Do you get that feeling? I do. Very often. What Ps. Mike has to say about this is that i havent really moved on with my past, particularly that song and the memory in it. Man, i thought i moved on already. It was couple years ago. All these while and i havent moved on?!

What do i do?

what do you do?

*playing: Marching Band of Manhattan by Death Cab for Cutie

is there more?

Jon Foreman said this," Eventually everything fails me, but when I look at the sunset or the sky, I'm reminded what it's like to be alive. My friends, there is a big difference between the way this world should be and the way it is."

I posted this quote. It was June last year. Feels like its just yesterday. I still hold the same feeling. Its been a year and somethings still missing. But where did it go? This feeling is irritating. and I irritate myself.

Im going back in few days. So very excited to meet Janice and to visit my grandma&grandpa(R.I.P). Feels like im going back to where i belong. I miss being home. I miss the good old days. I wanna travel back time. KL is too hectic. Too much stories. Too much drama. Too much freedom. Too much of everything. Im sick and tired. Speaking of, im gonna leave for US pretty soon. How much more drama can i take? How much more freedom is given? How much more temptations will there be? HOW MUCH MORE?!

Ugh. I wanna live a simple life. I complicate things. I complicate my life.

Anyway, i feel like spilling off everything about me. I know you could careless about it but just an update. I'm just gonna be frank. I had this silly crush not long ago. He's younger. Mature enough for his age, i thought. Guess i was wrong. Cos guys never grow up; they grow old. And i'm pretty sure about that. To be honest, it was a nice feeling. After a long while, i had THAT feeling again. Oh how i miss it. The hype, catching-breath and holding-back-moments. But it didnt last long. I was waaayy to excited about the feeling, not the reality. I like the fact that he is one of the nice guy that still exist today but it was just a wrong feeling at the wrong time. So yeah, to some of you that know about my feeling to that guy, its now over. Its just another crush.

Ssshhh. Sometimes i think to myself, why cant i love people in return? What the hell is wrong with me? Why cant i appreciate love?

I feel like im stepping backwards. Push me forward please.
Ugh. Three posts in a night. Emo-ing? Maybe.

This ugly feeling. Take it away.

Crush.

Ish. I'm goin emo. Liking Crush by David Archuleta.
It brings me to those memories. Crush. When it ain't going away.

Good old days. I miss you.

Badly :(

its been a while

It's been a while.
I have to warmly welcome coffee, eyepads, and sleepless nights again. I welcome Freud and Rogers too. Be friendly to me, please? Sigh. I can't really say goodbye to them, can I?

anyway,
God, thank You for everything. But i need answers; not just signs.

How do i know its you?
amanda.nat

*playing: Angels by Augustana

my 911

So i was on my way to Centre Point for group meeting yesterday afternoon. As usual, i took the train to KL Sentral, then i took bus from there. I was q-ing at the bus stop. I was with my headphones on and reading a book.

But there was one white guy who caught my attention. He's in his late 20 or probably early 30. What caught my attention was that he was talking to one Indian lady in malay. So i thought, "Hmm, interesting." Then i went back to my book again. Not long after, that guy came to me and asked me where i was going. I told him i was going to One Utama, then he asked for my name. I didnt know what to say so i told him my name and we shook hands. -_-" shucks. I regretted it. He started to ask things about me like what im studying, who im staying with and if i have a boyfriend. I told him yes. LOL. I thought he'd just go away. I was wrong. He continued talking i-dont-know-what cos i wasnt paying attention at all.

Anyway, the bus came and he went in first. After he got his ticket, he waited for me and told me he wanted to sit and talk. I was like WTH?!! I was damn scared. But i ignored him and went to sit on a twin seat beside a lady. *phew, sighed in relief, until i realized i did tell him that i was going to one utama. OMG! What if he decides to follow me? (FYI, I was being followed many times before so i was not overreacting okay. LOL).

Well, first thing that came to my head, PRAY! Yes, thats all i can think of. Then, i think again, if he really follows me, who should i call? Really. If something happens, who can i call for help? I had a long thoughts that day. I totally dont know who to call for an SOS; for an emergency.

sigh. I dont know. How?

-amanda.nat

i so hate consequences

And I'm good, good, good to go :I got to get away : Get away from all of my mistakes

So here I sit looking at the traffic lights : The red extinguishes the hope that the green ignites
I want to run away I want to ditch my life : Cause all of my mistakes keep me awake at night

And after all my alibis desert me : I just want to get by
I don't want nothing to hurt me : I had no idea where my head was at
But if my heart says I'm sorry can we leave it at that :
Because I just want for all of this to end

And i so hate consequences: And running from you is what my best defense is
Consequences : God, don't make me face up to this
And i so hate consequences : And running from you is what my defense is :
Cause i know that i let you down : and i don't want to deal with that

It just now hit me this is more than just a set back : And when you spelled it out, well, i guess i didn't get that : And every trace of momentum is gone : And this isn't turning out the way i want

And after all my alibis desert me : I just want to get by
I don't want nothing to hurt me : I had no idea where my head was at
But if my heart says I'm sorry can we leave it at that :
Because I just want for all of this to end

And i spent all last night : Tearing down : Every stoplight : And stop sign in this town
Now i think there might : Be no way to stop me now
I'll get away despite : the fact I'm so weighed down

All of my escapes have been exhausted : I thought I had a way but then I lost it
And my resistance was once much stronger : And I know i cant go on like this much longer

When i got tired of running from you : I stopped right there to catch my breath
There your words they caught my ears
You said, "I miss you son. Come home"
And my sins, they watched me leave And in my heart i so believed
The love you felt for me was mine The love I'd wished for all this time
And when the door was closed : I heard no i told you so's
I said the words i knew you knew : Oh God, Oh God i needed you
God all this time i needed you, i needed you

*Written and performed by Relient K (Album: Mmhmm)


Thanks, Relient K. You said it all.

i so hate consequences.
amanda.nat

"Like the sunflower, we have season"

So does CF. Thank You Jesus, for people who showed up in prayer meeting. Meeting after meeting, i feel like Your presence is getting stronger. Truly, it's really worth the wait, that now You have made everything perfect in its time. I see You in the heart of these people. Bless their heart, O God. As young as we are, our days are numbered. Teach us to always come back to Your plan, to what we are made for :)

Anyway, i screwed up my 303 (Counseling Theories) paper. Its been a while that i havent felt this terrible. Oh well, nothing i can do to change the fact. I learn my mistakes and i should move on and do better. Sorry God, i didnt give my best and i took it for granted. I will do better for the next ones.

One thing that sticks in my head these few days:

Kindness is one thing that you cant give away.

It always comes back. -Zig Ziglar

Goodbye, apathy.

amanda.natalia

it's just a moment of change

It's been a while since my last update. I mean, the real update. Well, this is one important thing that i learn lately in this season of my life.

We don't need more to be thankful for.

We need to be more thankful.

It slapped me on the face the first time i read that. How on earth i can stand listening to myself whining? Oh well, i just need to be more thankful from now on. So here goes my 'thank you' list (recent events):

1. Daddy up there

Thanks for keeping my family and i saved in Your hands; for sending great people into my life; for sending me on this field, where i can sow my seeds and reap them when the time comes. I know my life is worth living just because i realize i have You in my life. I love You and I wanna enjoy walking with You all the days of my life :)

2. Jeremy Lim

For always being there; for always listening; for always praying. And for always asking me "Are you ok?" That works well. Haha. Thanks to you. I found a genuine friendship in you and i learn so much from you. You're awesome :)

3. Timothy Wong

For being a great friend; for not always saying the nice things. I may not accept it sometimes but i understand the fact that you do care. About the things you said the other day, come to think of it, you're quite true. I can do so much better than that. So yea, i'm over it by the time you read this. hehe. Anyway, thanks for just being who you are. Thanks for trusting me. May God bless this friendship til the end :)

4. Adeline Tan & family

For being so supportive and ever-ready to help me moving to Oregon. I think you guys are more excited than my family is. Haha. But really, uncle, auntie, Addie, I'm truly blessed :)

And for some reason, i have to say sorry to some people like:

1. My dad

For not being patient, loving and not forgiving at times; for not being thankful and understanding of your situation. I love you, daddy. and Jesus loves you even more :)

2. Zion Ng

Haha. It was a funny story to tell. Anyway, really sorry for the total confusion. For the 3 days of the most chaotic moment in your life that almost cost your life, presentation and your emotional being. haha. Well, there's more to life than just that issues. I'm sure you know that. Ask God for direction. He'll be happy to help you. The most important thing is in Matthew 6:33. You're still very young. Life is too short to not live for something bigger, zion :)

Oh, and thanks for keep reminding me to smile. Its a good habit.

Erm, that's all for now, i think. Tell you more at the next post.

adios.

amanda.natalia

hello again

welcome back, amanda.

Learn your lesson. You know you can do it. You've done it. You've seen people went thru it. You have encouraged people to do it. You can do it, amanda. Yes, you can. its just a feeling. it will go away. just chase the butterfly away.

far away.

post CF camp 2008

1. Thank God for a wonderful camp. You make everything perfect in its time.
2. Thanks to CF camp commitees and all the campers. You all have made this season more beautiful and full of love.
3. Thanks to my dear sister, for always praying for me and loving me unconditionally.
4. Thanks to Vic and Isaac, for always being there. You guys are my treasure.

Once again, thank God for camp. It was an amazing one. I came to camp with a bunch of expectation, but not a prepared heart. Halfway through, God stopped me from running around. He told me i've been rushing in life and i've missed so many good views. So now i wanna take a slow walk with Him. cos i wanna see a greater view (:

enjoying my view,
amanda.natalia

Be in peace

Sorry.
I've been far away for far too long. I wish I realized how precious those times were. I've been walking so fast and I left those memories behind. I was too selfish. I'm sorry. I wish I could turn back time and bring you back here with me. I miss you, grandma.
You gave us wonderful moms and dads. You filled our childhood with happiness and adventures. You taught us how to appreciate people. You gave us laughters. So much of them. We thank you. You were a strong single-parent and a wonderful grandmother to all of us. This family is so blessed by your love and kindness. You are one of a kind, in our eyes and in His eyes.
Grandma, it is so hard that you're leaving us here. I wish God could take the grief away. But... one thing that i rest assured with, i know you have sretched your hands towards Him and He has shown you the place to rest in peace. And that place is in Him.
Once again, we thank you for your wonderful being. You're always be the one and only for us.
We love you, grandma. We always do.
Be in peace with Him.

with love,
amanda natalia.
on behalf of the Tans & Tjandras.


*Playing: A Thousand Miles by Vanessa Carlton

did you call?

here's just a quick post.
a very sincere apology to all of you who have been trying to contact me lately and didnt get any reply. i dropped my phone about few weeks ago and the screen got blacked out. so i can only receive call (that's if i am alert. cos if not, i cant see any misscall either). Ive been very busy working and having dance practises almost everyday til late night/morning so i am terribly sorry for the inconvenience. now you are free to contact me anytime cos im using dad's spare phone temporarily, til i get a new phone. btw, on the way to fix my V3i, dad lost it in the rain. think it got stolen. 2nd phone-lost in Malaysians' train. Malaysians, any comment?

young and restless,
amanda.natalia

set me free

i hope everything is worth fighting for. i miss the peace. i miss good feelings. i miss you.

surprise me. amuse me.

summer 2008

I miss my chickas alot. No one can ever replace them.
Here's a post from last summer, more than treasure.
truly madly deeply miss you.
I'm always here for you guys.
take care.

*notes for the lighter: You're gonna do great in your internship. all the very best :)


cheers to the lighter, the everlast, the piano, and the guitar.
have fun this summer!

xoxo,
*the cocktail glass

i'm not a quitter

i'm not a quitter. i'm not a quitter. i am not a quitter.

art works for sale

a friend of mine is selling his art works. i think he's very talented. great drawing. check out his blog here
or see my link list, delvin c.
please leave your comment here.
thanks.

7 Days of Lonely

Ohh
I got a call today
At 3 AM
It's what you didn't say that told me I'd get hurt again.
So I hung up the phone
And I screamed out loud.
I felt so alone, should have said the things I'm thinking now.

Ohh I never thought it'd be so hard to let you go.

(I just want you to know)
Tell me how I'm gonna make it, you're the one I can't forget.
It's like I'm running in slow motion in a nightmare that never ends.
When I try to face it when I wake up, I hate the way reality sets in.
God, I wish you could hold me through the seven days of lonely.
(The seven days of lonely yeah)

Oh it's deafening
The bitter truth.
I'm doing everything for the first time again without you.
I pretend I'm okay
But it aches inside.
There's got to be a way that's better than just getting by.

Ohh never thought it'd be so hard to let you go.

(I just want you to know)
Tell me how I'm gonna make it, you're the one I can't forget.
It's like I'm running in slow motion in a nightmare that never ends.
When I try to face it when I wake up, I hate the way reality sets in.
God, I wish you could hold me through the seven days of lonely.

My heart is speeding up and slowing down to know I know it's over, it's over.
And can you die of heartbreak, to die for love lost young?
I pray to find it again, oh again.

Got a call today
At 3 AM
It's what you didn't say that hurts again.

Tell me how I'm gonna make it you're the one I can't forget.
It's like I'm running in slow motion in a nightmare that never ends.
When I try to face it when I wake up, I hate the way reality sets in
God, I wish you could hold me
Through the seven days of lonely
The seven days of lonely
The seven days of lonely
Through the seven days of lonely
Ohh


(I-nine)

i wanna meet joey!

I love 'Friends'. Who deoesnt? (anyone?) well, this is one of the reason why i love Friends. please watch season 8 episode 12, titled "The One Where Joey Dates Rachel". It is one of the best episode in friends. This is why i love Friends and Joey Tribbiani so much. here the story goes. oh wait! i should tell you first that im not good in story telling but i hope you get the story. would be better if you watch it :)

Ok. So, Rachel is pregnant with Ross's baby but they're not together. Rachel tells Joey that because of her pregnancy, her body produces excessive hormones that cause her to be "erractically charged'. Then Joey replied, "is that a term for 'horny'? *i was laughing like mad.
anyway, Rachel admits that she misses going out for a date, when she can dress up and go for dinner at a fancy restaurant and so on. but since she's pregnant, she thought its impossible that any guy would want to bring her out for a date. so, Joey, being a nice and gentleman friend, offers Rachel a date that night. Rachel is very happy. *awww...

Ok. so that night, while Rachel was wearing her earrings, the doorbell rang. She shouted "Joey, can you get the door?" (no answer). So she went to open the door and there is Joey standing with a small bouquet of Lilies, (*awww...) and an empty paper bag (supposedly there's brownies for Rachel inside. But typically Joey, he finished it on the way home -_-"). Well, Rachel was confused and asked him what he was doing. Joey said "I'm going out for a date. so this is a real date." (*awwww...). Rachel was surprised with Joey but she was very happy with it and the lilies. After that, they went to this fancy restaurant and talked about their strategies in dating. *you must watch this episode!

after dinner, they went home, and again, they were talking about what their strategies in kissing-after-date. Joey felt something. awkwardness. In the end of the episode, Rachel were watching 'Cujo' alone while Joey was out for another date. but guess what? He went home early and found Rachel was watching alone so he grabbed a chair and sit next to her. Well, Rachel needed him at her side, so she asked him to sit at her side and hug her cos she's scared. Joey felt something. Rachel asked him "aren't you scared?" then he replied "erm, i'm terrified". And Rachel was in his arms. Joey felt terrified. not of 'cujo' but his feelings.

well, go and watch the show ok? season 8 episode 12 :)

p.s. remember the questionnaire in the previous post? for question no.10. other than jason wade, i would LOVE to meet Joey Tribbiani in real life :)

til then,
amanda.nat

i got tagged!

tagged by ms victoria :) its been a while. a long absence. so here it is:

1. What is the most important thing in your life?
my family. and bffs. and food.

2. What is the last thing you bought with your own money?
i cant rmb. probably some tees or necklaces.

3.Where do you wish to get married?
in a church located in a beautiful garden

4. How old do you think you'll be permanently owned by your lover?
as vic says, im already owned, form the very first time ;)

5. Are you in love?
im in love

6. Where was the last restaurant you had dinner?
carl's junior

7. Name the latest book you bought?
3:16 by max lucado and my textbook

8. What is your full name?
amanda natalia tjandra

9. Do you prefer mother or father?
do i have to choose!?

10. Name a person that you really wish to meet in your real life for the first time.
erm... jason wade :)

11. Christina or Britney?
none of them

12. Do you do your own laundry?
sometimes. but most of the time my sis does. i do the ironing

13. The most exciting place you want to go?
to my future house, with my happy family inside :)

14. Hugs or Kisses?
Hugs for everyone, kiss for certain ppl :)

15. Point out 5 things about the person who tagged you.
-she's my drama queen
-she's the one to turn to
-she's the caring and encouraging and reliable one
-she's the weak yet the strong one
-she's the very best friend

16. 8 things I'm passionate about.
-God
-family
-my ministry
-moving to US
-love
-friendship
-music
-life

17.8 things I say too often-
-whatever!
-i kill you!
-darn it!
-what the heck?
-you mad!
-oh really?
-weirdo
-ya ampun! masa sih?

18.8 books I've read recently.
-Bible
-cure for common life-max lucado
-a love worth giving-max lucado
-the dynamics of mass communication
-answers to life questions-billy graham
thats all recently.

19. 8 songs I could listen to over and over again.
-whatever it takes-lifehouse
-broken-lifehouse
-blurry-puddle of mudd
-yellow-coldplay
-champagne supernova-oasis
-traffic in the sky-jack johnson
-shout unto God-united hillsong
-the love song (written by a friend)

20. 8 things I learnt last year.
-He never fails
-about the breakthrough and how to break through
-faith makes all things possible
-how to love *1 Corinthians 13
-people disappoint you but He wont.
-you cant please everyone
-prayer moves God's hands
-forgive and forget

21. 8 people you tag-
timothy wong. adeline tan. janice muliadi. estelita ligatsa. and whoever read this.

*interesting fact: -most of my friends think i have a lovely name. they dont know that my sister has a nicer name: gracia angelika. nicer, isnt it?

*updates: i found some new friends. great ones. its been a year. i miss my chickas. so very much.
I'll be back soon. i want my nasi padang and janice muliadi. i want my estelita and memei too. i miss all of you.

loving life,
amanda.natalia

give it up

one. Things in life that we cant control. The only thing that we can control is ourselves. If we cant change things, we can change our perception towards it. Right?

two. A friend once told me, give it up, let it go. If it comes back, then its love. I couldnt disagree with that. Could you?

the vision

This is how a vision looks like to me.

Job 14
7. "For there is a hope for a tree,
If it is cut down, that it will sprout again
And that its tender shoots will not cease.

8. Though its root may grow old in the earth,
And its stump may die in the ground,

9. Yet at the scent of water it will bud
And bring forth branches like a plant.

13. Oh, that You would hide me in the grave,
That You would conceal me until Your wrath is past,
That You would appoint me a set of time,
and remember me!

14. If a man dies, shall he lives again?
All the days of my hard service i will wait,
til my change comes.

15. You shall call, and i will answer You;
You shall desire the work of Your hands.

16. For now You number my steps,
But You do not watch over my sins.

17. My transgression is sealed up in a bag,
And You cover my iniquity."

Job 17

9. "Yet the righteous will hold to his way,
And he who has clean hands will be stronger ans stronger.

10. But please come back again, all of you.
Foe i shall find one wise man among you.

12. 'the light is near', they say, in the face of darkness."

Bring me to my senses

Some things in life we cant miss or skip. Like the movie 'Click', it teaches us that skipping a part of life is not a wise thing to do. We have to bear with pain, argument, problems, routines... basically life. If we miss a step, be sure to know that we're gonna miss the lesson as well. Some people think that it will be easier to skip hard work. Less pain. True. But you know what? Hard work benefits you in the long run. I cant remember who i quote this from, "The easy road becomes hard, the hard road becomes easy." Make sense? You do the thinking.

Ive missed many chapters in my life because of my selfishness. Ive missed many opportunities in the renewal of my family, friendships and relationships. I had my 'down hill' time. But ive had it enough. I was waiting for the perfect timing to move on; where i am brave enough to admit my wrong-doings, brave enough to forget my past, brave enough to forgive those people and brave enough to move on. The lesson that i learn from life? Theres no perfect timing. If i have to move on, im gonna have to do it now. or never. Im gonna have to learn the hard way. am i ready? i always have the doubt but now im daring enough to say 'yes'. yes im ready to follow where this life is bringing me. i have my Father. i have nothing to worry about. right? everything is done for me.

I need to learn the hard way. we need to learn the hard way. i once read, "God gives food to the birds, but He doesnt throw it to the nest." agree?

i do.

amanda.natalia.

reunion

The Ligatsas (madelaine-steven-estelita)

-the reunion-

It was a great night. thanks to The Ligatsas.
I miss the talk. I miss the stories. I miss the dinner. I miss the laugh. I miss everything from them. I wish they could stay longer. I wish i could go back to my hometown. Somethings missing that day. We weren't complete. Some of us wasnt there. I wish i could meet my chickas. I wish we could see them more often. I wish i could take a short break and leave KL for a while.

i wish,
amanda.nat

curious

Someone tell me what to do
I feel like I must be a fool
For ending up right back at the start
The things that we don't comprehend
Are laughing at my mind again
I think that I think too hard
And I don't give enough credit to my heart

I'm so damn curious to know
And there are too many unanswered questions
Then we hold on to

I've put my theories to the test
You know I've tried to do my best
But maybe we weren't meant to strike gold
Sometimes things that you ignore
Are all the things I'm looking for
Will I learn to let go
Give into love and listen to my soul

Portraits of your loved ones
Are more than what you see
All the elements they capture
Are more to you than me
A different dimension we've yet to define
There's a forest to cut through with thorns and vines
There is no reason to try

current song: Curious by Holly Brook

hold you tight

You were right and i don't wanna be here. If your gonna be there, was that supposed to happen.
I'll hold tight, i'll remember to smile. Though it has been a while and without you does it matter.
There's no room, no place to start. When our souls are apart, i wanna travel through time.
See your surprise, hold you so tight. I'm counting down the days tonight.
I just wanna be a million miles away from here. I'm counting down the days.
How've you been, it's just the usual here and days are feeling like years, and every day's without you. Now I cry,just a little too much. When I think of your touch and everything about you, i feel cold, i'm in the dark.
When our souls are apart, i wanna travel through time. See your surprise, hold you so tight. I'm counting down the days tonight. I just wanna be a million miles away from here.
I wanna travel through time. See your surprise, hold you so tight. I'm counting down the days tonight. I just wanna be a million miles away from here, i'm counting down the days, i'm counting down the days, i'm counting down the days.
I'm gonna be your surprise, i'm gonna hold you so tight. Yeah, i wanna travel through time. See your surprise, i'd hold you so tight. I'm counting down the days tonight. I just wanna be a million miles away from here. I wanna travel through time. See your surprise, i'd hold you so tight.
I'm counting down the days tonight, i just wanna be a million miles away from here. A million miles away from here.

current song: counting down the days-natalie imbruglia

fortunate fool

She's got it all figured out. She knows what everything's about
And when anybody doubts her, Or sings songs without her
She's just so mmmhm
She knows the world is just her stage and so she'll never misbehave
She gives thanks for what they gave her
Man, they practically made her into a mmmhm
She's the one that stumbles when she talks about the seven foreign films that she's checked out Such a fortunate fool
She's just too good to be true
She's such a fortunate fool
She's just so mmmhm
She's got it all figured out. She knows what everything's about
And when anybody doubts her or sings songs about her
She's just so mmmhm
She's the one that stumbles when she talks about it
So maybe we shouldn't talk about such a fortunate fool
She's just too good to be true
She's such a fortunate fool
She's just so mmmhm

jackjohnson-

thanks jack. youve said it all.

the ny

a year ahead.
things changed. people changed. but He never changes. now til forever.
thanks for being so faithful, Daddy. i miss our times. i miss You, the most.
please bug me. please.