I thought I saw a man brought to life. He was warm, he came around like he was dignified. He showed me what it was to cry. Well you couldnt be that man I adored. You dont seem to know, dont seem to care what your heart is for. But I dont know him anymore. Theres nothing where he used to lie. My conversation has run dry. Thats whats going on, nothings fine Im torn. Im all out of faith, this is how I feel. Im cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor. Illusion never changed into something real. Im wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn. Youre a little late, Im already torn.
So I guess the fortune tellers right. Should have seen just what was there and not some holy light. To crawl beneath my veins and now. I dont care, I have no luck, I dont miss it all that much. Theres just so many things that I cant touch, Im torn. Im all out of faith, this is how I feel. Im cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor. Illusion never changed into something real. Im wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn. Youre a little late, Im already torn. torn. Theres nothing where he used to lie. My inspiration has run dry. Thats whats going on, nothings right, Im torn. Im all out of faith, this is how I feel. Im cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor. Illusion never changed into something real. Im wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn. Im all out of faith, this is how I feel. Im cold and Im ashamed bound and broken on the floor. Youre a little late, Im already torn.
you wish i will sing this over you? too bad, not a chance.
yes you are late. but im not torn.
current song: torn-natalie imbruglia
current mood: thoughtful.
Monday, September 24, 2007
Thursday, September 13, 2007
sapphire and faded jeans.
Three little birds sat on my window and they told me i don't need to worry. Summer came like cinnamon, so sweet. Little girls double-dutch on the concrete. Maybe sometimes we've got it wrong but it's alright. The more things seem to change, the more they stay the same. Oh don't you hesitate.
Girl, put your records on. Tell me your favourite song. You go ahead, let your hair down. Sapphire and faded jeans, i hope you get your dreams. Just go ahead, let your hair down. You're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow.
Blue as the sky, sunburnt and lonely. Sipping tea in the bar by the roadside (just relax, just relax) . Don't you let those other boys fool you. Got to love that afro hair do. Maybe sometimes we feel afraid but it's alright. The more you stay the same, the more they seem to change. Don't you think it's strange?
Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song. You go ahead, let your hair down. Sapphire and faded jeans, i hope you get your dreams. Just go ahead, let your hair down. You're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow.
'Twas more than I could take, pity for pity's sake. Some nights kept me awake, i thought that i was stronger. When you gonna realise, that you don't even have to try any longer? Do what you want to.
Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song. You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, i hope you get your dreams. Just go ahead, let your hair down.
Oh you're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow
(put your records on-C.B.R)
-just like they said; you'll find your feet :)
Girl, put your records on. Tell me your favourite song. You go ahead, let your hair down. Sapphire and faded jeans, i hope you get your dreams. Just go ahead, let your hair down. You're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow.
Blue as the sky, sunburnt and lonely. Sipping tea in the bar by the roadside (just relax, just relax) . Don't you let those other boys fool you. Got to love that afro hair do. Maybe sometimes we feel afraid but it's alright. The more you stay the same, the more they seem to change. Don't you think it's strange?
Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song. You go ahead, let your hair down. Sapphire and faded jeans, i hope you get your dreams. Just go ahead, let your hair down. You're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow.
'Twas more than I could take, pity for pity's sake. Some nights kept me awake, i thought that i was stronger. When you gonna realise, that you don't even have to try any longer? Do what you want to.
Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song. You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, i hope you get your dreams. Just go ahead, let your hair down.
Oh you're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow
(put your records on-C.B.R)
-just like they said; you'll find your feet :)
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
not myself
Suppose i said, i am on my best behavior. And there are times, i lose my worried mind.
Would you want me when im not myself? Wait it out while i am someone else?
Suppose i said, colors change for no good reason. And words will go from poetry to prose
Would you want me when im not myself? Wait it out while i am someone else?
And i, in time, will come around. I always do for you
Suppose i said, youre my saving grace
Would you want me when im not myself? Wait it out while im someone else?
Would you want me when im not myself? Wait it out while im someone else?
current song: not myself-john mayer
current mood: thoughtful; surrendering
Would you want me when im not myself? Wait it out while i am someone else?
Suppose i said, colors change for no good reason. And words will go from poetry to prose
Would you want me when im not myself? Wait it out while i am someone else?
And i, in time, will come around. I always do for you
Suppose i said, youre my saving grace
Would you want me when im not myself? Wait it out while im someone else?
Would you want me when im not myself? Wait it out while im someone else?
current song: not myself-john mayer
current mood: thoughtful; surrendering
Saturday, September 1, 2007
it rained.
why all things should matter if you already have it all? a pastor once said, we only can start to love our lives when we can start to be grateful with what we have.
that is what im struggling with. to be grateful with the things that i haven't noticed i had before; to be grateful for those experiences, mistakes, memories, and those people around me.
especially to forgive those people who hurt you, who back stabbed you, who fake-laughing and fake smiling at you and knowing that they are your close friends. well at least, that's what you think.
but then again, that's life. it is not something good to enjoy, it is not easy and it is very much a struggle. and for that reason, i finally found my firm foundation. and that is where i am now.
i thank Him for that. for every reason He has, in order to get me here, i am so grateful. i have no idea whats going on now. i have no idea whats going on tomorrow.
there were so many things happened lately. i have so many things to worry about today right here right now at this moment. i whined about it. i cried about it. i cursed everyone and everything. i even gave up.
but the time has come, when it rained on me. so hard. so powerful. and it left me breathless. rejoiced. and fully-satisfied. it rained on me.
it is now i realize that i have a journey to walk onto; its not an easy one. it is a journey where i have to decide where my destination is, who to go with, and what are the things that i want to bring along in the journey.
again, im clueless. i need someone to bring the lights to me. i need someone to go with along the way; to walk, to run or to hold hands with.
cos i know theres gonna be dark times; the time when i fall, the time when im too tired of walking, too tired of wandering around and the time when i lost my direction again.
thats when i need the lights. need the presence. need the drink for my thirst. when i need a hand to hold onto.
ive got to be ready, for the time has come. when everything is ready for me. where everything is just beautiful. where everything is just at the right place, the right time; then i will realize that i've found the right person. it is when everything is just perfect they way they are.
and this is where i wanna be. here. only here. when its raining down. so hard.
its getting me ready. and im so ready. and im so ready to be found.
that is what im struggling with. to be grateful with the things that i haven't noticed i had before; to be grateful for those experiences, mistakes, memories, and those people around me.
especially to forgive those people who hurt you, who back stabbed you, who fake-laughing and fake smiling at you and knowing that they are your close friends. well at least, that's what you think.
but then again, that's life. it is not something good to enjoy, it is not easy and it is very much a struggle. and for that reason, i finally found my firm foundation. and that is where i am now.
i thank Him for that. for every reason He has, in order to get me here, i am so grateful. i have no idea whats going on now. i have no idea whats going on tomorrow.
there were so many things happened lately. i have so many things to worry about today right here right now at this moment. i whined about it. i cried about it. i cursed everyone and everything. i even gave up.
but the time has come, when it rained on me. so hard. so powerful. and it left me breathless. rejoiced. and fully-satisfied. it rained on me.
it is now i realize that i have a journey to walk onto; its not an easy one. it is a journey where i have to decide where my destination is, who to go with, and what are the things that i want to bring along in the journey.
again, im clueless. i need someone to bring the lights to me. i need someone to go with along the way; to walk, to run or to hold hands with.
cos i know theres gonna be dark times; the time when i fall, the time when im too tired of walking, too tired of wandering around and the time when i lost my direction again.
thats when i need the lights. need the presence. need the drink for my thirst. when i need a hand to hold onto.
ive got to be ready, for the time has come. when everything is ready for me. where everything is just beautiful. where everything is just at the right place, the right time; then i will realize that i've found the right person. it is when everything is just perfect they way they are.
and this is where i wanna be. here. only here. when its raining down. so hard.
its getting me ready. and im so ready. and im so ready to be found.
Friday, August 10, 2007
i carry your heart with me
i carry your heart with me, i carry it in my heart
i am never without it, anywherei go you go, my dear;
and whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling
i fear no fate, for you are my fate, my sweet;
i want no world, for beautiful you are my world, my true
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant;
and whatever a sun will always sing is you
here is the deepest secret nobody knows
here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;
which grows higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart
i carry your heart
i carry it in my heart
ee cummings
i am never without it, anywherei go you go, my dear;
and whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling
i fear no fate, for you are my fate, my sweet;
i want no world, for beautiful you are my world, my true
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant;
and whatever a sun will always sing is you
here is the deepest secret nobody knows
here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;
which grows higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart
i carry your heart
i carry it in my heart
ee cummings
more than treasure.
here are those that the everlast admire about :
the lighter - the oldest among the group, the master, the most cheerful one, the one who always give brilliant ideas, the most understanding one, the loudest, the one who always always believe on the power of believing, the one that is always close, the one that stays close, the fearless, the push-overer but also a push-overable, the straight foward, the understanding one, the wild one, the undoubtful one, the eager one, the demander, the one to turn to, the one to rely on, the craziest shopper, the one to turn to, the best.
the cocktail glass - the petite, the second loudest, the sweetest, the unbelievably unbelievable, the hard worker, the heart of gold, the active, the talkative, the lovingly lovely, the smartest, the positive thinker, the best advisor, the undeniably best listener, the self keeper, the glue, the greatest thinker, the selfless one, the forgiving, the faithful, the most caring, the calming, the fun one, the pure kindest, the believer, the giver, the wisest, the on track one, the weak and the strong, the romantic one, the most organized, the best.
the piano - the hottest, the careless, the unjudgemental, the calmest, the listener, the quietest, the unbelieably uncaring, yet the caring one, the nonfaker, the longest known, the undefitable tomboy, the gamer, the egoistic, the most understanding, the wierdest, the one of a kind, the "i do what i want" one, the undiscribalby undiscribeable, the honest one, the other wild one, the other fearless, the every languange translator, the other survivor, the shoulder, the dependable, the secret keeper, the laziest, the best.
the guitar - the youngest, the student, the still in process one, the great artist, the loved by everyone, the reciever, the "kasiaaaan", the unbelievably strong one, the cry-less, the brave one, the quick learner, the good listener, the lighter look a like, the brilliant, the learner, the spoil one, the spoilt one, the asking type, the one of a kind story teller, the good questioner, the dreamer, the sexy legs, the best.
the lighter, the cocktail glass, the piano, the guitar - the ones that the everlast will love for ever and ever, the most important, the most amazing thing, the reason to smile, the reason to give thanks, the enjoyably enjoyable, the comfort, the security, the more than treasure.
the everlast-ing.. us.
(adopted fr. the everlast)
the lighter - the oldest among the group, the master, the most cheerful one, the one who always give brilliant ideas, the most understanding one, the loudest, the one who always always believe on the power of believing, the one that is always close, the one that stays close, the fearless, the push-overer but also a push-overable, the straight foward, the understanding one, the wild one, the undoubtful one, the eager one, the demander, the one to turn to, the one to rely on, the craziest shopper, the one to turn to, the best.
the cocktail glass - the petite, the second loudest, the sweetest, the unbelievably unbelievable, the hard worker, the heart of gold, the active, the talkative, the lovingly lovely, the smartest, the positive thinker, the best advisor, the undeniably best listener, the self keeper, the glue, the greatest thinker, the selfless one, the forgiving, the faithful, the most caring, the calming, the fun one, the pure kindest, the believer, the giver, the wisest, the on track one, the weak and the strong, the romantic one, the most organized, the best.
the piano - the hottest, the careless, the unjudgemental, the calmest, the listener, the quietest, the unbelieably uncaring, yet the caring one, the nonfaker, the longest known, the undefitable tomboy, the gamer, the egoistic, the most understanding, the wierdest, the one of a kind, the "i do what i want" one, the undiscribalby undiscribeable, the honest one, the other wild one, the other fearless, the every languange translator, the other survivor, the shoulder, the dependable, the secret keeper, the laziest, the best.
the guitar - the youngest, the student, the still in process one, the great artist, the loved by everyone, the reciever, the "kasiaaaan", the unbelievably strong one, the cry-less, the brave one, the quick learner, the good listener, the lighter look a like, the brilliant, the learner, the spoil one, the spoilt one, the asking type, the one of a kind story teller, the good questioner, the dreamer, the sexy legs, the best.
the lighter, the cocktail glass, the piano, the guitar - the ones that the everlast will love for ever and ever, the most important, the most amazing thing, the reason to smile, the reason to give thanks, the enjoyably enjoyable, the comfort, the security, the more than treasure.
the everlast-ing.. us.
(adopted fr. the everlast)
Monday, July 2, 2007
women are from venus, men are from hell.
i cant remember how or where i got that title from. but just so you know, i'm not condemning, not being judgemental to all guys (well, not at all). sorry but in fact, i have to say its true. to every man who reads this, say what you wanna say, argue whatever you can to deny that. TV movies songs radio Internet, well, the whole world tell us that. we're not being judgemental. well, even if we are, we have tried so hard no to be, yet it still happens.
one thing that brought me to this topic is the so-called-MANJAMEL foundation (ci, who made the name? sounds a bit corny hehe) has posted the article on one of the members' blog few days ago, as the result of the so-called-maneater issues happening around. in relation, to share a bit about what has happened or *is currently happening, there are this group of young adults (in the average of 18-26) which is happened to incidentally have almost the SAME drama as the famous TV shows, namely "One Tree Hill" and "The O.C." and oh, plus "The Hills" too. you know those typical drama story when a groups of girls and guys have mingled around since they were young (or at least for few years), they share most of their time together day and night, days by days, years through years; well, in short, they happen to have a circle relationship (i wont define this in details! you, readers, should figure it out yourselves!), which is keep going on and i can say, there is almost no way to stop it. some of them have gone through it and are okay with it whereas somebody else still deals with it and tries hard not to have it again. but well, its undeniable. they all brought up in the same place, went to the same schools, in the same circle of friends, hang around with the same crowd, the exact same places (blame it to the governors, businessmen, investors for being incompetent, not creative, and careless to build new places! -sorry, that's kinda out of topic. hehe-), plus, some of their parents also know each other.
anyway, my point is that circle relationship is not always bad. depends on how you see it and get used to the fact that it might bring you to the situation where you have to see your ex(s) is(are) seeing one of your friends. depends on how deep you would go for it. especially with the fact that guys could be heartless and so much careless about our feeling, just dont dig too deep if you dont want to get yourself buried in the hole. it is just about you being ready with the drama. well, i hope that this thing wont continue to the next level (if you know what i mean). i've had it enough with the 'real' One Tree Hill, The O.C., or The Hills. i dont want to watch another wisteria lane drama. especially, be involved in it.
*sigh
drama. drama. drama. people are never too tired for that.
one thing that brought me to this topic is the so-called-MANJAMEL foundation (ci, who made the name? sounds a bit corny hehe) has posted the article on one of the members' blog few days ago, as the result of the so-called-maneater issues happening around. in relation, to share a bit about what has happened or *is currently happening, there are this group of young adults (in the average of 18-26) which is happened to incidentally have almost the SAME drama as the famous TV shows, namely "One Tree Hill" and "The O.C." and oh, plus "The Hills" too. you know those typical drama story when a groups of girls and guys have mingled around since they were young (or at least for few years), they share most of their time together day and night, days by days, years through years; well, in short, they happen to have a circle relationship (i wont define this in details! you, readers, should figure it out yourselves!), which is keep going on and i can say, there is almost no way to stop it. some of them have gone through it and are okay with it whereas somebody else still deals with it and tries hard not to have it again. but well, its undeniable. they all brought up in the same place, went to the same schools, in the same circle of friends, hang around with the same crowd, the exact same places (blame it to the governors, businessmen, investors for being incompetent, not creative, and careless to build new places! -sorry, that's kinda out of topic. hehe-), plus, some of their parents also know each other.
anyway, my point is that circle relationship is not always bad. depends on how you see it and get used to the fact that it might bring you to the situation where you have to see your ex(s) is(are) seeing one of your friends. depends on how deep you would go for it. especially with the fact that guys could be heartless and so much careless about our feeling, just dont dig too deep if you dont want to get yourself buried in the hole. it is just about you being ready with the drama. well, i hope that this thing wont continue to the next level (if you know what i mean). i've had it enough with the 'real' One Tree Hill, The O.C., or The Hills. i dont want to watch another wisteria lane drama. especially, be involved in it.
*sigh
drama. drama. drama. people are never too tired for that.
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