perfection is imperfect.

we are perfectly imperfect.

i'm sure we all know that we dont deserve any kind of perfection even tough we all want to be perfect and try so damn hard to be perfect. but in fact, the more we want to be perfect, the more we will suffer. in my opinion, there's no such things as perfection. the thoughts of perfection might have slipped through our mind, but its just from the head to the mouth; it doesnt mean that we have achieved it. taking actions toward perfection is good, but lets leave the pressure behind.


most times, we are entirely sure that we are doing the right thing. we think we already have enough time to run everything. one important thing is that timing is everything. we can do the right thing anytime. but it will be a lot better if we do it on the right time as well. as a suggestion, never use to many maybes. make up your mind. for that reason, we should be really careful with what we're asking for cos we might not be able to take it back. sometimes we feel so confident (even over-confident) in what we're doing,that often times, we hardly think of what or who we get ourselves into. until we can be sure enough to figure out whats behind it, im sure that is the right time to start our walk. as for myself, i still find it so hard to be skeptical in everything im involved into. yes, it is not easy to face the fact that not all people will like what you are doing, not all people will be happy for our accomplishment, or even to sense that they are all fake-smiling when they congratulate you. people are mean. (well, we are mean, too). its a sad truth. but the great truth is that we should put on our expectation, our own boundaries, our border lines, considering that we can surely look deeply through it. high expectation is indeed to be set aside.

the bottom line is to do what our heart says. our conscience is always there to tell you when to stop or keep going on. you just have to pay more attention to that voice in your heart, not in your head. (my point is to be aware with what we heard as we are easily influenced or even corrupted by it). cos most times, the voice in our head is the voice of ego, which often poison our mind with the things we think we want and strive to achieve it, sometimes without considering any consequences.

try to do the things we've loved to do. dont think too much abt people's judgement. they're not your judges! the heck of those people. they dont know you. most of them are all posers. they think they can go through everything you've been through if they were you. in fact, most times they wont be able to do so. but as im writing this for someone, im sure she knows that i dont mean to judge all those posers. (argh! i just wrote POSERS-which is the sign that i've judge them. haha. but anyway, its totally normal cos i am a poser too. in fact, we are all posers and big liars, aren't we?). we cant even accept our wrongs and try so hard to prove that we're not. *look down in shame

so anyway, my point is to take your time to discover yourself through the people around you and the things you've been through. look, search, seek deeper and harder, and try to be more skeptical and sensitive to the things around us by being critical with people, issues, and our conscience, as a good way to improve ourselves. then, we can gradually discover ourselves throughout the process.
*the more we want it fast, the less we got the benefit.

i'm so thankful to one of my friend (and my other friends) that has inspired me so much with her (their) experiences. it helps me a lot as i discover a lot of myself through her (them). Love you!
*smiling blissfully

*we are all drama queens. agree?

amanda natalia.